I realised a couple of things. Feeling so so, is actually ok and perfectly acceptable. I’m not particularly excited about anything but that doesn’t matter. I feel calm, chilled out; I imagine this is how it must feel on a large dose of valium.
I understand I can remove myself from situations that I’m sensitive to or that upset me. I don’t have to try harder or bend over backwards for anyone. I can just leave it be. Sometimes being selfish is actually ok. I haven’t spent the last 14 months fighting for my life to put everyone else’s needs before mine.
Yesterday something great happened. I looked at myself in the mirror and fell in love with my wavy hair. I’ve hated my new hair for months but I’m finally embracing it.
Funny to think just 8 months ago I had no hair at all and then all this happened…