You can’t be a hussy with crap tits.

Cancer took so much from me and it’s been a domino effect where each negative thing that happened seemed to create another negative.

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Now I’m  really trying to make all the negatives good again.  Some I can’t change. I can’t change my damaged body and scars and the damage chemo has done to my reproductive system. I’ve had one period in 14 months so I really don’t know what’s going on. My body image and not having periods all have a knock on effect. Perhaps I could deal with all that if they were individual problems  but that’s just part of the bigger picture and nothing compared to the fear and worry of cancer.

Next year I’m going to start clawing back everything that cancer took away. I will have more surgery to make me look normal.
I’m going to stop refusing dates, go on dates and meet someone amazing.
Im  sure the right man will ground me as I’m a bit wild sometimes and probably need a calming influence.

Also a severe lack of sex is just not for me so next year I’m going to have shit loads of sex  hopefully with just the one guy of course. I don’t think you can be a hussy with crap tits haha..

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But mostly next year I’ll be getting my self confidence back.

So 2015 (and lucky man)I hope you’re ready for me.

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One Comment

  1. weight2lose2013

    I wish you the best in all of your wishes. Self confidence is such a key factor. Even small things, like when I chipped my front tooth several weeks back, caused me to be very self conscious. Plus, I made an annoying whistling sound when I tried to talk. 😀 Bring on 2015!!!

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